The Rhythm of God

I’m learning to enter the rhythm of God.

Most of the time, I am anxious to be in control of my life, to push my way in.

But now, I am slowing down, waiting for the opening the Lord makes for me.

There is an order to everything, and everything happens in God’s timing, so I no longer need to struggle.

It’s going to take trust, to acknowledge that my whole life is in his hands.

He creates a way for me, I only need to wait for it, and not try to take it by force.

When I feel the impulse to say something, I wait with it, until it is time to place it in the moment reserved for it; its God-appointed time.

I can even let go of the words, knowing they will be given back to me when they are needed.

Then I can relax, knowing I don’t need to control everything and force my will on the events unfolding before me.

He is in control.

He is in control.

Those He foreknew, he also predestined

EDIT: I’ve changed my mind on this again, and I’m no longer confident that molinism is correct, but I’m leaning towards the reformed position once more because of the enormous weight of scripture behind it that I just can’t ignore. I think there are many clever doctrines we could adopt and they can seem very convincing and alluring, but we need to stick to what the Bible actually says.

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God’s sovereignty and his providence has been an area I’ve been studying for a while now, painstakingly and obsessively at times. Recently I confessed to some Christian friends that I didn’t believe God would provide me an answer. I felt that God is very able to give clear answers, but that he didn’t always answer the questions we wanted. I still think there is some truth to that, but now God has proven me wrong and finally given me some clarity in this area. Consequentially, I’m going back on what I said in my previous blog post on God’s providence, where I held a view closer to Thomism or Calvinism, where God created us in a certain way, which determines how we will act in any given situation, thereby making God the first cause of our every action. You can read it here: God As A Writer.

I realize now that this view essentially destroys free-will, and makes God the author of evil. It makes a nonsense of every time in the Bible that God asks a human being to make a choice, or laments over a human being rejecting him, since all human beings would be acting in their own nature, exactly as he has created them, and according to his definite plan. It also makes the current state of the world exactly as God desired it to be, with all the evil and suffering therein. It also makes it God’s definite plan that most human beings would suffer in eternal hell, that he created some people with the certain purpose of destroying them, even though God himself laments about how he desires that all should be saved, and that he takes no delight in the death of the wicked, and how he longed for Israel to turn to Him and He would save them.

I realize now, as Romans 8:29 tells us, that those whom God foreknew he predestined, in other words: God knew beforehand who would freely respond to his grace, and those are the ones he chose to reveal his grace to. So when he created his plan for the world, he did so with the free choices of people in mind. This is why our observable experience tells us we have free-will. This is why the world doesn’t look like everything that happens is the desire of a loving God, but looks like a world broken by the evil choices of his creatures. He is fully sovereign and in control, but his plan included giving us free-will, that is why the world looks the way it does, and doesn’t look like a literal heaven on earth. But in spite of terrible human choices, he uses and orders the world to accomplish his purposes. So I’m not saying God isn’t in control, I’m saying that the world clearly reflects a divine plan that accommodates rather than violates human free-will.

I came to this understanding after my studies into divine providence zeroed-in on Romans 9, a key passage in this debate, where it says that God elects individuals to salvation, before they are born, and before they have done anything either good or bad, demonstrating that salvation is not based on the works of individuals, but on the mercy of God. Calvinists take this to mean that God arbitrarily selects those who will be saved (or perhaps they would say not “arbitrarily” but his reasons for selecting are a mystery), and that comes prior to the faith of the human being, meaning that human free-will doesn’t even come into it. So those who are saved are not saved because they responded positively to God, they are saved because they are chosen beforehand by God, and those who are not saved are cast into hell, not because they rejected God, but because God didn’t choose them from the beginning.

When you contrast this to the scriptures where God says he desires all to be saved and none to perish, this would mean that God doesn’t do as he desires, even though it was completely his decision before the beginning of time, and not based on any human consent. And how are we going to respond to non-Christians through Apologetics, when they come with questions about the problem of evil? We can’t tell them that it’s the fault of humans and their freely choosing evil, we have to say that God wanted it all this way. It just doesn’t add up.

So I wanted to find out what Christians have said historically about Romans 9, to make sure I’m not totally off-track in my interpretation. This has been a debate as far back as the 5th century, and probably a lot earlier if you look at Jewish and Greek views, but there seems to have been a consensus among the early fathers of Christianity, up until the 5th century. From reading these patristic commentaries on Romans, it was clear the dominant view was that God had chosen those whom he foreknew would believe. The first time we see this challenged is in the 5th century by St. Augustine, where we see the basis of what became the Calvinist view. But early on, Augustine himself had held the older view, and expressed it at least twice in his commentaries on Romans. He even admits this himself, later in life, that he had changed his mind on it.

So after studying the text myself, contemplating it in light of the rest of scripture, listening to debates, reading the commentaries of the Church Fathers, considering the revealed character of God and his desires, thinking about my lived experience and what best makes sense of it, I’ve come to the conclusion that I was wrong in taking the Calvinist stance on sovereignty. I think God really did give us free-will, and he is fully in control down to the management of the smallest details. He creates and orders without doing violence to our free-will, and those he has chosen and called to be conformed to the image of Christ, are those he foreknew would freely respond to his grace. I feel a lot of peace with this conclusion. I could still be entirely wrong, as my knowledge is only in part, but this makes the most sense to me now.

Growing Good Hearts

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” (Colossians 3:23)

There’s quite a lot in this verse. When I first read this, I took it to mean that whatever work I am doing, whether it’s in my job or at home, I should give it 100 percent effort with 100 percent attention, and I found that to be quite off-putting if I’m honest! How about 80 percent, and I’ll also listen to a podcast?

Then later on my understanding of it shifted, and I thought the way to apply it would be that whatever I am doing I am bringing the Lord to mind, maybe saying a little prayer to remind me I’m doing it for him. Or even just saying, “this is for you, Lord!”

And then later, I even tied this into God’s divine providence by reminding myself that whatever was in front of me to do was actually provided by God, and I should give him thanks.

Now, all of these ways of understanding it are good and true, but I hadn’t noticed that the verse didn’t just contain something ‘to do’, it also contained a command of what ‘not to do’. We are not to do it for human masters.

I think it all comes back to the nature of God’s love. Jesus tells us that by his free choice, not determined by human action, God causes his sun to shine on both the righteous and the unrighteous.

God doesn’t love us or save us based on our performance. The good work that God does is not based on who deserves it or has earned it. He does it because that’s who he is, its his nature, and he does it for His glory.

So when we say we are not working for human masters, we are not saying we give them the middle finger. We do our best, but not for human approval, and not to reward some perceived good behaviour, and we stop withholding our love and charity to those we feel no longer deserve it.

We do good to become more like God, who is good for goodness sake. We are doing it for Him, and we are also doing it for our neighbour, but not based on their behaviour, but based on who we are becoming in Christ.

Jesus taught us to love our enemies, and not just love those who love us. Because, if we hate those who hate us, then we become just like them and hate grows in our hearts also. God wants something better for us. He wants love to grow there instead. So that is why we do good, not to repay something, but because God wants love to grow in our hearts.

We are all terrible at this, and me especially, but I am trying to learn to do good because its good. It can be very hard at times, when someone has offended or hurt us, to keep loving and serving them as best we can. I think we just have to try, little by little.

I think there can be incredible freedom in this, as we are no longer slaves to what others think of us, looking to God alone for approval, and the state of our hearts is no longer controlled by how others treat us, tossed around by our surroundings like a leaf in the wind. We begin to exchange our impulsive, reactive heart for a quiet heart that is responsive to the Lord.

Surrender the Sword

Without Him, we can do nothing. (John 15:5)

For in Him, we live and move and have our being. (Acts 17:28)

This is something, if we want to, we learn in deepening levels throughout the course of our lives.

For most of us, we learn it best in those moments we feel we are facing insurmountable odds, when life has become too tall for us to climb over.

It’s in those moments that we most often

remember

to pray.

And like a young child wielding a sword too heavy for us to swing, we put it back in our Father’s hands.

Don’t worry TOO much about context!

I think sometimes certain Christians can go a bit far with demanding other Christians quote Bible passages in their proper context, and levels of application can be missed.

Take this well-known verse, as an example: “I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord; plans to prosper you and not to harm you.”

This gets quoted a lot to mean that God TODAY has a plan for our lives and we can take comfort in that, as his plans are good and for our benefit.

But certain Christians will say, “no, you’ve taken this out of context! That verse is not directed to you today! It’s God talking to Jeremiah about God bringing the jews out of Babylonian captivity after 70 years!”

Now, of course we should read in context and understand the wider narratives of the Bible, but it’s a mistake to think this verse cannot be applied to us TODAY!

Although God is specifically in this context talking about his good plans for the ancient Hebrews, this verse reveals something about the nature of God and how he operates.

He doesn’t just leave we humans to our own devices, but he has plans for our lives and his plans are for our ultimate good. This theme runs all through scripture and to miss its implications for our lives today is a big shame!

I know he was talking to Jeremiah, but I know that when I read these words today, he is also saying them to me and you, and inviting us into closer intimacy.

Praise God our Father that he has plans for our lives and may we embrace them and learn to trust His goodness!

God-reliance

“When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.

When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, ‘If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.’ Jesus answered him, ‘Simon, I have something to tell you.’ ‘Tell me, teacher,’ he said. “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?”

Simon replied, ‘I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.’ ‘You have judged correctly,’ Jesus said. Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, ‘Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.'”
(Luke 7:36-47)

What occurs to me is that both Simon the pharisee and the sinful woman in this story are sinners. Just like in the parable of the publican in Luke 18, both fall short of the absolute perfection of God. No matter how well we behave, in this life we will never be completely free of sin. We will never have perfect morality. So Simon and this woman are both sinners, but while Simon is full of pride, the “sinful” woman has an awareness of her own spiritual poverty. She knows she is a sinner, while Simon does not.

If we have a physical illness, we will only go to a doctor if we know about it. But even if we don’t know, it is wise to go for a check-up. We should ask God to search our hearts and reveal our hidden faults and lead us into ever-increasing freedom. But Simon is blocked by his pride. Worse than that, instead of being willing to see the sin in his own heart, he just wants to point his finger at others. “Don’t you realize, Jesus, that she is a sinner!”

I don’t know about you, but I see this a lot in myself. Why do we have this tendency to want to point out the faults in others and ignore our own? There is an expression, whenever you point a finger, there are three fingers pointing back at you. Jesus also says elsewhere, “you are trying to take the speck out of your brother’s eye, while there is a plank in your own eye!” I think we have to spend a little time reflecting after we read these stories, and ask ourselves if we might see something of ourselves in these characters.

I think on a subconscious level we resist acknowledging our own sin. Perhaps it is a self-defense mechanism, and out of fear we want to protect our self-image, so we can be seen to be a good Christian, and we won’t be punished in some way or looked down on. We all want to be doing okay and succeeding, that we have really gotten somewhere, and we don’t want to be broken or powerless. But when we stop fighting to project our good image, when we make ourselves vulnerable and speak to God the truth of our hearts, we position ourselves to receive his power.

We remember the true vine. We are no longer trying to be a strong, healthy, independent branch, but we connect back in, and we remember that life was never found in the branch but it always came from the vine. The Christian is one who lives in dependence upon God, just as a child depends on his mother. To our society, this kind of dependence seems like foolishness, as so much emphasis is put on self-reliance, and we may even feel guilty that we cannot do it on our own! But God never designed us to be self-reliant. We were made to be God-reliant. And as Paul said, “when I am weak, then I am strong, for God’s power is made perfect in weakness.”

Seed Fallen on the Path

I have this experience where I watch a debate on a topic, and I become really convinced that one side is right. I get and resonate so well with that side’s arguments, and the other side I feel sure has just got it wrong. Then life happens, and I watch the same debate months later, and things are completely reversed. Suddenly I see the other side in a new way, and their arguments suddenly make great sense, and that first side I sided with no longer seems as correct and coherent as it once did.

Jesus said that those who hear the truth and yet do not understand it have calloused hearts, and it’s like trying to plant seeds on a concrete path: nothing’s going to sink in enough to grow. And I see this so much in myself. Its not as black and white as the metaphor might have you think. I’m listening and understanding much more than I ever have, but it’s a process, and I’m more aware of the concrete-like block in my heart.

Can I really listen without bias? Am I always just looking to affirm what I already think I know? Are my ideas about truth as solid as I think they are? I guess this is why the book of Proverbs teaches us not to rely on our own understanding but to submit to God and let him set straight our paths. It’s the Holy Spirit that leads us into truth, and as I become more aware of the limits of my own intellect, this becomes all the more relevant. Sometimes it’s knowing when to put the internal struggle down and wait upon the Lord’s answer.

Words alone won’t do

I want to share an experience with my words, but I find that my words are not quite enough. The word and the experience are a terrible match, like comparing side-by-side a matchstick and a volcano. I cannot share my experience of God through my words, but perhaps God might show the reader, he might put the right image in their minds or the right feeling in their hearts. But that is out of my control. When faced with someone who doesn’t know you, Lord, the inability of my words to express you, it is the saddest thing but also the most relieving thing. Because it isn’t about my words, their wisdom or their eloquence. If your Spirit isn’t there, Lord, they amount to nothing. Even the holiest words to push out through the fingers of men, the words of our scriptures, amount to nothing without your presence. You need to open our hearts, Lord, so we can experience the truth they point to. If even those words aren’t enough, without your Holy Spirit, what good could mine be on their own? As the apostle Paul told us, let not our faith be in wise and eloquent words but in the Spirit’s power.

A Change of Focus

I always thought Jesus was a bit harsh when he gave the sermon on the mount. He told his disciples that unless their righteousness surpassed that of the pharisees, the religious elite of the time, then they wouldn’t enter the kingdom of heaven. He then took the rules of the time, such as “you shall not murder” and made it much harder, saying that if they even get angry with one another, they would be in danger. Wow Jesus, that is pretty harsh!

But then I sat with this some more and I got an insight into what Jesus is doing here. The pharisees may not have murdered, but they didn’t have love for one another. Their religion was one of external observance only. Jesus was not simply making a tough set of rules more difficult, he was trying to move their focus. He didn’t want them to just follow rules, he wanted genuine love to abound among them. Murder is an external action, but anger is in the heart. Jesus was leading them to a heart transformation. This is the spirit of what he was saying: “I don’t want you to just follow external rules, I want you to love one another!” It wasn’t about him making impossible demands upon us that we could never keep.

In fact, Jesus himself is going to make that change within us, if we come to him. He called himself the living bread from heaven, the bread that when eaten gives eternal life. He called himself the true vine, that whoever remains in him produces the fruit of righteousness, but not apart from him. He says he’s going to put a new spirit in us, and take away our heart of stone and give us a heart of flesh. Through his Spirit the work begins in us, and through his Spirit it is carried on until completion.

A Proud Man

A proud man cannot love God.
He loves to see himself attending church
and being seen to do good.
When he prays, he doesn’t look to God
but delights in seeing himself pray.
He loves how he sounds when he talks about God,
but he doesn’t love God
because he doesn’t really know God’s love for him
and he doesn’t really know himself.
When you walk with God
you are walking with the brightest light
you have ever known.
It is a light that is never blocked
and never casts shadows.
It is a light that permeates all.
Walking in such a light,
in the presence of such perfection
you see what a broken man you really are
and have always been,
only you could never face up to it soberly.
And in that moment of terror,
knowing that you deserve nothing,
God’s love around you
glows like a warm fireplace
all the more.
And you know that you have never
been loved like this,
when you see how much he has known
of your brokenness,
how he has seen down into the depths of your heart
and knows the darkness there
yet loves you completely
with an invincible promise.
Then you will love God.