Got some good news.God doesn't desire you to haveindependent moral perfection.He's not like"oh look at that guythat guy is just perfectI don't need to have a relationship with him,he is doing just fine on his own."No.When we talk about repentence,that is NOT what we are talking about.The bible teaches that God desiresa broken spirit and … Continue reading Repent?
I didn't want to beinterruptedfrom Godbut as I looked upI sawit was His faceinterrupting me.May I never beso on the callthat I miss the call.God isin the time between.He's in the long walk homeand the waiting before.He's in the cancellationand the defeat.When the day is exhaustedand the frustrated hum of hoursis settled into quiet,He is … Continue reading God is in the Interruptions
I always thought that Elijah,when he seeks Godon the mountainand finds him notin the powerful windor the earthquakeor the firebut in the gentle whisper,that he was teaching us to be stillto hear Him.And that is true,but I realize now it is more,it is about who He is.He's not what we expect.He's not weilding lightning boltsand … Continue reading Gentle
Ever since I was littleI've had this recurring dreamof being in a tidal wave.I would see this great wavetowering in the distance,thousands of feet high.And I knew my timewas running out,so I would flee,try to hide,try to fight it,but I would always becomeoverwhelmed,and sometimes I would even diein my dream.But this time it was different.This … Continue reading Holy Mountain
The saddest thingis not that God is hard to findbut that we,having found him easily,are not prepared to pay the price. So much we hold on to,we consume ourselves with,we don't know what it is to let go,to enter the gentle streamsof his instruction,to fall back into his depths.The things I've chosenover life in God,what … Continue reading The Saddest Thing
Faithis a funny thing.I still doubtthat he is even there.No matter how many signsit is never enough.Jesus saidthat an adulterous generationasks for a sign.Faith isn't going to workthat way.Faith is the hopein things not yet seen.It's trusting in the invisible.It isn't about gathering enough evidenceor experienceto prove he is there.God will hide himselfthat we might … Continue reading Faith is a funny thing..
In a dream onceI knew I was dreamingso I venturedfrom the storylineand entered a cave.Deep withinwas a mirrorand I wanted to see myself,what I was likein this deep, inner place.What I saw was twisted,my body set in shadows,scarredand dry and wiltinglike a plant,head hanging down,eyes empty and glazed.I have seen him since,in those momentstaken off … Continue reading Broken in the Light
I think there is peacein failure,when it finally appears,no longer loomingdarkly in the distance,when it comeswith its toothless bite.I tried so hardto keep it away,but it was always closing the gap.I need it to be okay,so I can stop fighting,stop trying to provethat I am good enoughwhen I am not.Failure is a dark creature,but it … Continue reading Peace in Failure
I wanted to write a bit aboutthe way of Godas I've come to discover it.My way is one of force,of control, of coercion.I push, I strain, I workto defend myself,to bend othersand the world around me,to accomplish my aims.And sometimes my aims are goodand I want to help,but I find myself in conflict.My ways don't … Continue reading The Way of God
God does not desire perfectionin the first place.In fact, if you were perfectin yourselfyou would have no need for God.It is not a failureto have to depend upon God,because he is the source of perfection.But what we do needis humility.This is something God can work with,if we are honestwith ourselves and God,if we are openabout … Continue reading Humility